Dasar Sialan. What a shame

Emosi dari manusia saat tidak lagi tertahankan akan mengarah ke umpatan, kata kasar, negatif. Apakah manusia memang cenderung bergerak dan menyukai hal-hal negatif? Seperti dosa. Hal negatif yang menyenangkan. Umpatan, melepas emosi jiwa. Seperti bom di kepala yang dikeluarkan begitu saja. Kali ini, aku membahas soal emosi manusia yang aneh. Aku tidak paham teori-teori yang meneliti soal emosi manusia, yang dihubungkan secara sains dengan kemampuan otak manusia, kelenjar dan hormon yang berpengaruh. Tapi yang jelas emosi ini yang membuat manusia adalah manusia. Bukan sekedar seonggok daging yang berjalan tanpa emosi, tanpa perasaan, bukan perasaan yang lemah itu. Perasaan kuat, yang membuat kita mengenal pribadi-pribadi termasuk diri kita sendiri. Lewat identifikasi diri, evaluasi dan perenungan momen-momen yang terjadi.

What I want to tell is about the truth. Someone have told everyone by his book. He said " Rather than fairness, than love, than money, than fame, give me truth". He is Thoreau. Our emotion is the key about truth of ourselves. Our emotion always want to be set free. But, in this world that full with hypocrite hold our emotion. Our logic and brains that hold it. Frightened about unstable condition, indistinctness. Someday, people will think I'm not that strong to hold this condition, this unfairness, this hatred, this love. Then, that people will think also how if? what if? ah, it's impossible. My old senior ever told about fear. Fear is about an unknown conditioning, a hesitate to do something that comes wavily. But, there's ever a wisdom people said the only thing that certain is an uncertain thing. So how can we face the world that full of uncertain thing? The answer is to use the emotion, our feeling, the intuition. It never lies. No matter what they say, no matter what you feel then. The important thing is to say it. To do something, it's better than do nothing.

I wrote it also to breakthrough my emotion. I just write what i want to. Never think about it, without scheme, without consideration. Just free. Like, "Ultimate Freedom". No one will ever blame you, even yourself. Your emotion have to be free, to face this world. To live your life. End